It’s been almost 2 weeks since I last wrote. Even though I had others intentions, life & my illness got in the way. I had a flair up, which took me a week or so to recover from. And it took me another week or so to catch up with my life. It can be very overwhelming playing catch up, while staying current with my life. But I didn’t let it get to me, instead I just went with the flow. It is what it is.
Before my illness, things would stress me out if what I had intended or pictured didn’t come out a certain way. It really ruined my day because I let it get the best of me. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t plan on writing once every 2 weeks. I plan on writing as much as I can, hoping for at least 3-5 days a week. And if I can’t then I can’t, I’m not going to stress. Going with the flow isn’t about my failure or inability to write my blog or live my life, it’s actually the opposite. It’s learning how to live with my chronic illness in a way that gives me the best quality of life. It’s my ability to work with the hand god gave me and making the best of it. Instead of stressing about things that are beyond my control, I focused on the things I can control & let everything else go. I embraced the flow of life and the direction it was sending me on. And in doing so, it created more inner peace, which helped me fight my recent flair up. Isn’t interesting how everything works together, how everything intertwines?